Facing a corner

Down at my worst, time has come to put myself in total isolation. A realisation came upon me whilst in Kuching, one reminding me of all the moments I held dear as well how all of it was stripped away from my life. Putting everything into a bag wasn't hard, but pushing it aside and taking it out of my life, now that was torture.

My trip to Kuching was refreshing, but ruined by conversations concerning past events. All I hope is for the hurt to eventually end. Family makes me both smile and frown. Numbing the pain, I wish for everything to be put on hold till China comes along.

If you ever read this, I hope you live a long and eventful life without me, as well as for you to figure out what you really want in life. Frustrated as I may be, nothing will kill me more if I see you now. We may live within similar circles, but I'm making extra efforts to seclude myself so as to not bump into you. Please, respect me and my decision. Please, let me heal and don't come back running so soon telling me you've changed your mind when we both know you haven't.